Where Did You Go?

i'll always be here for you
the words that you said
the time that we spent
still spinning round my head
you asked me to meet you
but you didnt say where
the next thing i knew
you werent even there

where did you go?
im so lost without you
where did you go?
im dying inside
where did you go?
i just want to see you
where did you go?
please come back..

wish you would tell me
what made it all change
somethings not right
and this all seems so strange
i feel like ive lost
my only true friend
guess it was all lies
that you just wont defend

where did you go?
im so lost without you
where did you go?
im dying inside
where did you go?
i just want to see you
where did you go?
please come back

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just tell me why
thats all that i want
i deserve more than this
you said this was true
my time is spent wondering why..
..why the hell i lost you

I Lay Awake

why do i feel so bad about caring so much?
where have you gone, how'd i lose your touch?
there are so many things that i needed to say..
it seems when i try they come out the wrong way..
you told me to believe all your words were true..
and i believed them, but how about you?
this whole thing has turned into one big mess..
i dont know what to feel, cant get rid of the stress..

i lay awake at night wondering what to do
i lay awake at night dreaming about you
just hold me close, tell me i'll be ok..
there is no way tomorrow can be as bad as today

stop hiding from me, stop pushing this away..
look me in the eyes, tell me what you have to say..
i want to know everything that your thinking..
maybe together we can stop this ship from sinking..
i know you feel bad and think that your to blame..
but i wish you could see that i feel the same..
you've made me realize that i am alive..
so now i'll push on, and try to survive...

i lay awake at night wondering what to do
i lay awake at night dreaming about you
just hold me close, tell me i'll be ok..
there is no way tomorrow can be as bad as today

Are you still there?

well it sux because im sober tonight
this is when my words dont come out right
i need a drink to calm my nerves
i need to figure out what i deserve
im so sick of being depressed
is this life just one big test?
if it is then how do i pass?
it certainly seems like im failing this class!

i never was any good at learning...
i have no feeling and my heart is burning
all these thoughts that i cannot control
so much confusion down in my soul
so now im alone with only my choices..
in my head i hear all these voices
none of the words are making any sense
did i do what was right? will i have any regrets?

you were there at first but now your gone
i just dont get it, did i do something wrong?
i almost thought you'd be my angel to guide me
thought you'd be right there standing behind me.
but when i turned to look there was no one in sight
just another cold and empty night.
i'll still be waiting here if you ever change you mind
cant afford to lose another one this time...

Is this for real?

Could this really be all me?
Could this really be my fault?
I havent done anything wrong...
Why am i writing this song?

So many times when you had put me down
So many times when I felt i didnt belong!

So now i'm trying to move on,
But your standing in my way?
Trying to bring me back with all these things you say!
But you cant see that this heart is gone,
It wants to move on, wants to breath again
It wants to write a different kind of song..

So many times when you had put me down
So many times when i felt i didnt belong!

if you could only understand
the way that she makes me feel
if you could only see
the way i am when she is with me
if you could only accept
the way that things are
then only then can i tell you I love her.