Perfect

You might not be perfect
but your perfect for me
the moment your around
your all that my eyes see
that look can steal breath
and I cannot breathe
trapped in this moment
and its where i love to be

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to many things
and so many distractions
i say all these words
just to see your reaction


you mean more to me than you will ever know
i just wish i could show you and you didnt have to go

i need someone else to live inside my head and take control

im not loving and im not caring
yes this is me, please stop staring

What a Mess

my pants are all crooked
and my shirt is a mess
when was my last haircut?
i cant even guess

i barely sleep at night
and im always tired
drink coffee all day
hoping to get wired

how did i get this way
and why dont i care
im bored all the time
with just a blank stare

whats on my mind
where are my thoughts
i gotta stop all this
before i get caught

but thats just it
i dont even care
all my time spent
wishing you were here

so where is my mind
i thought you knew
my mind is here
but my heart is with you

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Where Did You Go?

i'll always be here for you
the words that you said
the time that we spent
still spinning round my head
you asked me to meet you
but you didnt say where
the next thing i knew
you werent even there

where did you go?
im so lost without you
where did you go?
im dying inside
where did you go?
i just want to see you
where did you go?
please come back..

wish you would tell me
what made it all change
somethings not right
and this all seems so strange
i feel like ive lost
my only true friend
guess it was all lies
that you just wont defend

where did you go?
im so lost without you
where did you go?
im dying inside
where did you go?
i just want to see you
where did you go?
please come back

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just tell me why
thats all that i want
i deserve more than this
you said this was true
my time is spent wondering why..
..why the hell i lost you

I Lay Awake

why do i feel so bad about caring so much?
where have you gone, how'd i lose your touch?
there are so many things that i needed to say..
it seems when i try they come out the wrong way..
you told me to believe all your words were true..
and i believed them, but how about you?
this whole thing has turned into one big mess..
i dont know what to feel, cant get rid of the stress..

i lay awake at night wondering what to do
i lay awake at night dreaming about you
just hold me close, tell me i'll be ok..
there is no way tomorrow can be as bad as today

stop hiding from me, stop pushing this away..
look me in the eyes, tell me what you have to say..
i want to know everything that your thinking..
maybe together we can stop this ship from sinking..
i know you feel bad and think that your to blame..
but i wish you could see that i feel the same..
you've made me realize that i am alive..
so now i'll push on, and try to survive...

i lay awake at night wondering what to do
i lay awake at night dreaming about you
just hold me close, tell me i'll be ok..
there is no way tomorrow can be as bad as today

Are you still there?

well it sux because im sober tonight
this is when my words dont come out right
i need a drink to calm my nerves
i need to figure out what i deserve
im so sick of being depressed
is this life just one big test?
if it is then how do i pass?
it certainly seems like im failing this class!

i never was any good at learning...
i have no feeling and my heart is burning
all these thoughts that i cannot control
so much confusion down in my soul
so now im alone with only my choices..
in my head i hear all these voices
none of the words are making any sense
did i do what was right? will i have any regrets?

you were there at first but now your gone
i just dont get it, did i do something wrong?
i almost thought you'd be my angel to guide me
thought you'd be right there standing behind me.
but when i turned to look there was no one in sight
just another cold and empty night.
i'll still be waiting here if you ever change you mind
cant afford to lose another one this time...

Is this for real?

Could this really be all me?
Could this really be my fault?
I havent done anything wrong...
Why am i writing this song?

So many times when you had put me down
So many times when I felt i didnt belong!

So now i'm trying to move on,
But your standing in my way?
Trying to bring me back with all these things you say!
But you cant see that this heart is gone,
It wants to move on, wants to breath again
It wants to write a different kind of song..

So many times when you had put me down
So many times when i felt i didnt belong!

if you could only understand
the way that she makes me feel
if you could only see
the way i am when she is with me
if you could only accept
the way that things are
then only then can i tell you I love her.

I Lost You (the one that got away...)

you were right there in front of my face

too many feelings my heart couldnt place

i was too busy, wasnt paying attention

you were patiently waiting for me to make a connection

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you moved along...

you couldnt wait for me to decide

i was to busy locked up inside

you'll always hold a place in this heart

i only wish i could go back to the start

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every word ive said was true

nothing will change the way i feel about you

you understood me when nobody could

knew you couldnt wait but hoped that you would

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you moved along...

you couldnt wait for me

locked up inside, i was just to busy

in my heart you will always be

just please please dont forget me

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I Lost You...
I Lost You...
I Lost You...
I Love You...

Dead From You...

anger...
jealousy...
rage...
hate...

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how many emotions can one person bare
so many things in life are not fair
somtimes its easier to just give up
so many things are just fukd up

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betrayal...
depression...
emptiness...
lonelyness...

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how many emotions can one person bare
so many things in life are not fair
somtimes it easier to just give up
so many things are just fukd up

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alone...
betrayed...
broken...
hurt...
cold...
sorry...
dead...

Take it all Away

im goin crazy.. im goin insane
all these thoughts in my fukd up brain

all these plans to just make it right
but all i really wanna do is fight

ive felt this pain & ive been here before
theres too much shit that i cant bare anymore

i wanna runaway and find a place to hide
and get rid of all these demons inside

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its sad to say
but i cant take one more day
sumtimes i feel
like takin it all away
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ive always heard that god has his plan
but this sumthin i'll never understand

why would his plan fuk wit me and you
im so afraid of cracking in front you

because if i break who's gonna put me back together
this is one more storm that my heart just cant weather

so if you look at me and i begin to cry
please, just say fuk it, and walk on by

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its sad to say
but i cant take one more day
sumtimes i feel like
takin it all away
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Did I Miss Sumthin?

u fucked me up

and what do i get?

fucked up pride

and years of regret!

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so now im lost

dyin inside

trying to figure out

y the fuk u lied

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u took a ride

when u should have stayed

and now ur fukd cause

of the mistakes u made

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all those years

of bullshit and lies

why the fuk couldnt

god hear my cries?

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i ask all the time

to just make this right

and now i cant

even sleep at night

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so now im cold

fukd up and broken

what are u kidding me..?

God must be joking

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u say its ok

and we can fix this

but what the fuk

how the hell did i miss this?

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